Talk to me....

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now, whos to say, well be ok
We will make it through the night
Dont wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I dont want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I dont know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

The sudden death......

10th of September....
One of my friend's brother passed away....
Everyone was shocked....
When i heard about this in class...
I cant stop tearing...
Im sorry to heard that....
On that day after i know about the death...
We went and visit our friend.....
I really cant accept it..
I cant stop tearing when i saw her father shivering and crying there...
I and Amy also cant tahan and cried....
Most of the brother friends also crying like hell...

Can you imagine when your boyfriend said:'' Baby, i'll be back.'' to you...
But end up he met with a car crash and leave the world forever and never come back anymore...
How hurts it can be to the girlfriend....
And they were about to go for further study le.....
End up...he just left like that....
I will rather die....sorry to said that....

Although i don't know the brother...
But when i know that he passed away so sudden without leave a word to his girlfriend and the family,
I can imagine the pain...and i can feel it....
It is very hurting...and horrible....
Because i faced before...
When your beloved leave you without leaving any words....
And come so sudden...
It makes you don't know what to do....
Worst is....the brother made my friend the only child and left her with so many responsibility...
It is quite hard to accept the facts....
And made my friend don't know what to do....
Aiks....babe...you really need time k....
We will support you!!!

A Tiring day...

Today suddenly step in the class...
WenQi asked say she effing want to swim...
And i teased her...hahahaha...
Cuz her Swimming pool damn small....hahahaha
So last minutes they decided to swim at my house lo....
So damn last minutes...And we invited Amy also....



I was damn f-ing tired after having Pj...
Plus use too much "brain" doing Add Math works and playing chess with them...
Haiz...And i slept in WenQi car the whole way back to school fetch second round and back to my home at last....Huahahahaha....saliva nearly come out..hahahaha
Lucky uncle dunno....huhuh...it's because the air-cond is so cooling...
Hahahahahahahahahaha...


When reach home the 1st thing i did was clean my barbarian room and the house...
Cuz the galz are coming...kecoh la....aiks...
Around 4pm they reach my house when i'm having my tasty toast...
Then i went down to take them up then they 'lawat' my house pulak..
Huahahahahahah.....lucky i clean the house d...hahhaahh..
Then without wasting time we went down swim swim lo....



In between we took lots photo...
Stupid and fcuk up photos....
This call makan kenyang noting to do then take the camera snap here shoot there...
Aiks...galz ma...like that wan lo....huhu...
Damn tired la...then this few miss went up to my house again...
Aiks...i like maid...hahaha..
Prepare toast with butter for Amy and WenQi..
Sonia she cook Maggie....sendiri masak pulak....
Around 8 someting my mom came back and send them back...



Aiks...
Then now my mood changed....
Fcuk up...
Don't know what happen also....
I just feel damn damn miss him....
Like want die d...
But he sick d....aikz...
Then he told me he went to see doc at HUKM ..
Which is his friend work as doc or don't pharmacist or what la...
She checked up for him and give him free medicine...
Good lo..can safe money...
But i wasn't know that she damn lovely until can send him her mom cooks from Cheras all the way to PJ for him....
When he told me i was like...what the hell...
She already did part of my job as a girlfriend....
Aiks...maybe i think too much....
Or i wanted to cari pasal only...
Whatever la....somehow i don't feel good when he told me about these....
My god....how come....how come...
What da hell happen la....
Why suddenly will feel like that wan....
I memang jealous ma...cannot meh...
Asshole....aiyo....damn fcuk up la....
See...now my anger come d i don't know how to cool down d...
Im afraid that if he sms or talk back with me i will ignore or malas layan him...
And i always did that..
Cuz i really dunno how to calm down...
And i feel that im f-ing ego...
How le now...
I guess we having a 'war' now....
I think i will wait him sms me tomorrow morning then only i decide want to reply him or not...
Is it bit over?? No gua.....whatever la...



I guess he sleep d...
He sms me i juz replied damn cool...
Aiks...is it my problem???
Am i too sensitive???
I think too much d???
If yes then im sorry baby.....

Fcuk up day!!!

What da hell.....
Noob Sonia tore my new bag....
What da fcuk....
Motherfuller......
New bag le.....
Sumre today 1st time use it.....
Cibai....=.=ll
Spoil my mood...
What da hell.....

Today Pengetua like syok syok gave us mask...
Everyone must wear...
And i wore...
Like Ninja only...
Can only see my right eye only...
What da hell.....




















well...im doing revision...(ya right..)


























































Looks weird right...
What da hell....


















well...this is Rekha's hand...she try to fix Kiran's
T-back mask....noob sial...=,=ll


















Ta da.....Kiran's panties....see he so syok sendiri there..
haha...what da hell...





Another things happened today is..
My baby went to Ipoh work...PC Fair again....
Boring sial....
Can't see him pulak....
Miss Malacca pulak.....
Feel want go there again....
These are some of da pictures i took....





















This is da church near his house..nice..
i mean da mother mary....dunno what he praying pulak...





































Mandy and her baby i carrying...so cute...


















Mandy's baby's birth mark..wow...




















Popeye so gedik go and kiss fat fat...haha...




















He just cut his hair that time...
and we were eating the malacca famous food at jonker street...



















Noob dog-Roger....his dearest dog..=.=ll



Still got a lot...
Lazy to upload la...
Just miss the days at Malacca...
What da hell....


Aiks..
Tomorrow got Biology and Add Math exam..
And i'm not going to take it..
Fcuk it...
Lame test...
Rather sleep at home...


Haiz...
My fcuking new bag la....
What the fcuk!!!!!!

The 1st post on 2009

Its been fcuking long didn't open my blog d....
Nowadays everyone was so into blogging...
Siao d....

Im facing SPM for another 3 months plus le...huhu :(
Dunno what to do....
what da fcuk...

I just get my Eason Chan concert tickets from my baby...
It's RM298 each...and i got 4...ngam ngam for my family...
He said don't give my friends...is for my family only...haha
Think wat...wan bribe my family meh....
Tot wanted to go MTV Worldstage with Sonia, WenQi, Rekha they all....
Mana tau...habis pulak ticket...babi sial...

Today we having August monthly test...haha
who cares...
I finished my BM and BI paper....
When Chemistry paper i blanked the structure questions...haha
Totally blank!!!! What da hell!!!!

Recently i just met back my Arab friend-Alexandra...
Thx WenQi anyway...
He 'made' from Austria and Arab...
And he told me that he hated Arab very very much...
Guess what...i love his car's sound system very mush...
And he told me that it cost RM7k++ to modified the sound system....
Motherfuller....i love his car man....
Wait la....one day i get my car i'll modified kao kao wan....
kaka...huahahaha...

oh ya...
Haven intro my baby...
His name is Stefan Edbergh...
23 years old...(6 years older than me le...)
Born on 04/11/1986...(i'm 2nd of Nov)...haha
175cm...
<60kg...(almost same as me)
made from Sarawakian and BabaNyonya...
but considered BaBa...cuz born at Malacca....
He got a chihuahua face...haha...
Handsome sial....but damn thin...
Sumre make me look like DorAmon....babi~~
Know him since 2009 March PC Fair...
Haha...tat time damn funny....
I didn't notice him much also...
Mana tau...dia kao gua....haha..(Syok sendiri kejap)
At 1st i also scare we got age gap...
But everything was fine till now...
He is a caring boyfriend...
And is the one i love the most until this moment...(geli sial if he saw this)...haha
We started our relationship on 26th of April....
And i met his family at Malacca.....so nice...
I like Malacca...especially their BaBa dialect...
So harmony....
well...this bout him....
and i love him so so so much....

That's all for today...damn lazy la...
Tomorrow got exam sumre...
i think is Math and Physic....
Boring sial.....
Kena study nanti...
Haiz....

Bye the whole M'sia.....:p

Essay on LOVE

What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified? What is the one emotion that has started as many wars as it has ended? What emotion has had more plays, songs, and stories written about it than anything else? Love, that one emotion that makes enemies into friends and friends into enemies. So many legends surround this emotion, from the goddess Athena and Helen of Troy to Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet.

Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn't appear to be the same emotion at all, but it is. There is so much to love, that it will be hard to put into this simple essay. It can tear people apart and make us do irrational things to bringing together entire nations. What can this emotion not do? It's hard to tell, but there is a lot it can.

This emotion, bring tears to our eyes when something happens to our family members, friends, and pets. When we feel love ripped from us, as in death or being spurned by another, we do things we wouldn't normally do, such as go on violent rampages, or mourn to the extent that our loved ones have to watch us constantly to make sure we don't try anything like suicide. Some can move on, always remembering the lost loved one after a while, but others can not let go. These are the ones that need our love and support the most.

There are so many levels to love, that I can only express a few of them here. These are the ones we see most in life. Friendship starts this list off. Yes, it doesn't seem like it, but we do feel love towards our friends, this is what helps us get along so well, and why we miss them when we don't see our friends for a long time. It's also why we hold certain friends over others no matter what happens. Sometimes, the bond between friends deepens to the point where a stronger bond of love is made, making them family.

Another level of love, are for our siblings and other family members. Even though we do things to our family members, and sometimes we don't like some of our family, that bond is still there. It's this family bond level of love that brought about the phrase, blood is thicker than water. We will do things for our brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, and children before we would even consider doing them for anyone else. Many wars have been started because of this family level, brother avenging brother or father, father protecting his wife and children, or even vice versa. This simple family bond can even extend to include our pets, amazingly enough, and that is a good thing.

A third level to love, is the bond that brings man and woman together. This level is among the strongest of them all. It is this level of love that has brought together kingdoms into nations in the past, and ended many great wars. It's is also for the love of a woman that has started a few of our well-known wars, like the Trojan Wars of ancient times. It's brought together families that have argued for years and years, such as in the Shakespearean play, Romeo and Juliet. Even though the two mentioned killed themselves in the end, it still brought their families together.

The last mentionable level of love is that bond between a mother and her children. There is no stronger, nor will there ever be. This bond starts from the very first tiny fluttering of movement and never ends, even after death of the child. A mother protects her children in the name of love, and directs them through life using it as the example to follow. Well, at least it should be. It's because of her children a mother will work at a job she hates, just to make sure they have everything they could ever want or need.

The phrase, love makes the world go round is very true. It's is our driving force, for what ever reason it may be. Poems, plays, and legends can only briefly touch the true meaning of love. We can only feel what that meaning is, and express it in ways only we can understand towards another. The true question we should be asking is not, what is life, but what is love.

What is love? I don't know, but I'll do what I can to express it to my son, my husband, my family and friends, and to every single pet I have or ever will own in the best possible way that I can.

God bless me....

What happened to me....
I did not miss him much....
What should i do le????

Just only visit Ben's blog....
So envy them...
So lovely.....

This holiday is so terrible for me....
No place to go...No money to go anywhere....
And that is why need to work....
Work from 0900 till 1800...
Sometimes work from 0900 till 2200....

Everyday remains the same...life 's boring....
Sunday...bored...Guitar class from 1000 till 1200...
Haiz...why...so...boring....

I miss my classmates...
I miss my friends.....
I miss my classrooms.....
But i doesn't miss the teachers....

If somebody ask me what is the most important thing to me???
I will answer...
My friends....
My true Friends...
My trustworthy friends...
My close friends...
My best firiends...

Withouts friends...
I think i'll die la....

The second thing i need for my life is my Family....
I had lost One of them...
And i do not want another of them leave me....
But i know that is impossible...
Living things doesn't live forever....
And that is why i am so appreciate them....My dear family...

Christmas is near....
I wish...
All my friends are blessed.....
I wish...
I can spend Christmas Eve with him...

Merry Christmas!!!!