Stefan ♥

To my baby..

Love you the most ♥

No matter what happen, it's enough having you by my side... =)

What a fucked up day..

(this pics is taken ytd)

yup, just now went to drop by at MV Starbuck while waiting mom to fetch me

she tried her best to clean the table as fast as she can because im waiting for sending her back since im there waiting for mom

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All this photos is taken this evenign when on the way back from college..

How awful it is..

Going back home also have to be so risky..

The bus macam "Sardin" like that...

Huhu kesian man...

Had lunch with Baby during break time just now..

At least he made my day better..

Love looking at his smiles =)

Well, back to the MOM ISSUE...

I had disappoint myself again...

Haiz...

Why la...

Baby went back to Melaka with Darren..

So tomorrow the Monstersss will having extreme SUPER fun without me...

WTF

-_-

I seriously don't know when only i have my freedom..

May God bless me =(

MOM ISSUE!!!!!!!!!

I really got no fucking idea why mom always controlling us.

Why cant she let me go wherever i want?

Not say i always go out..haiz..

Wth man...

Really tak puas with her..

Assume that she's actually worrying about me, but i think that im old enough to take care myself and carry myself very well..

I am not 8 years old girl..

I know who am i going out with and go where im going..

Why cant she trust me huh???

Sometimes is not that i want to lie to her.
It's because there is no use telling her the truth and telling her everything in details.

I felt bad too for lying sometimes..

But that is the only way can fullfil my wish...

I just want to spent some time with him at somewhere else peacefully -.-"

Feeling WTF right now -.-"

Wondering when only she will "LET" me go...

I really feel that she is fucking racist to him and treat me very unfair...

What the fuck is wrong???

People is just a normal human not alien!!!

I really do not know how to communicate with her anymore!!!

What should i do now??

I am the kiind of people that must get whatever i want!!

Im not selfish!

I just hope that my wants to be fullfil..

And there is no "scracity" occur in this situation!!

Because im not asking you money or anything!!

Im just asking for your fucking permission!!!

MOM IM ANGRY WITH YOU!!!!!

Being a UTARian...

"UTAR seriously full of dumbass and weirdos, they really freaked me out!! God!! Have you ever seen 18 yrs old boy using SWAN school bag and trolley school bag which is the primary students using to University?? -.-llllll"

Above is my current Facebook status.
Im not being bad,
Im just telling the truth...
-.-"

First day step into the campus, felt so weird..
Maybe i still not used it the life in Uni...
After registeration, sat in the big hall listen to the talks..
Which is freaking boring and freaked me out the whole day...
God..

Seeing my facebook status can explain everything..
Not to say i want to "memalukan" them..
But seriously, why they cant dress properly with some fashion+formal dress code sense??
The worst things is...
18 years old guy using "Swan" school bag...
I swear..
I never use it even when i was in primary school...

Okay...
Ignore this..
Lets talk about the Uni canteen...
The freaking canteen is really smaller than my previous secondary school's canteen..
The foods i don't know whether nice or not because i didn't even step into the canteen..
From far i already can see that the canteen is full of "Sardins"..
How to makan there??
See the crowd already make me meluat man...

Before this i thought my campus will be at right in front of Jaya One..
Mana tau..
Kat belakang sana..
Damn hard to get taxi...

After the shity orientation..
Went to baby house..
So nice when reach there he cook for me...
So me him and Darren had lovely lunch...
Felt so warm.. =)
After so tired whole day go home got people waiting for me and cook for me...
Hahahahaha...
Macam bahagia sangat kan?
Thx baby!!
Muax

Yesterday suppose to go for "Ice Breaking"...
I decided rest at home..
instead of playing stupid games and make friends there...
-.-"

Today...
same...
I rather go somewhere else better than stay at there listen to those rubbish talks...

Haiz..
Wish me good luck and hope i can get use to the life there earlier...

Good Luck
Michelle Tan

Stabilized...

Things went better now....
So happy =)..

Next Saturday i get "licence" from my mom to go camping with baby..
Woohoo!!! so happy!!!

The situation was like this..
Me: "mi, im going gunung nuang camping next week."
Mom: " Nowadays keep raining wo, how to go? Sure not fun wan."
Me:" Wont wan la, sure fun wan, we going in a big group ma."

Then she kept quite.
Yesterday i told her i confirm going camping already, but i did not tell her who im going with.
Hahahahahaha..
She didn't ask me too.
So i assumed she "approved" me!!!

This afternoon when having lunch with i pura-pura ask her tips about climbing mountain.
From the whole conversation i knew that she knew im going with my baby.
So just let it be..
So weird that she let me go.
I guess she knew we wont do anything in the middle of a scary jungle.
Hahahahahaha!!

Today supposed go MV with Sonia and etc.
But kena FFK..
What the hell man.

Going MV tomorrow with them.
Been centuries didn't meet her..

Monday,
UTAR orientation.
Bored!!!
Super lame some more...
-.-"

Michelle Tan
Good Luck!!!

Annoyed by Nightmares

Can you believe that 3 days non stop dreaming the similar things..
Which is scaring me and make my mood swinging up and down everyday...
Really couldn't believe what i've dreamed..
Do our dreams come true???
Of course we hope dreaming getting more money or having a perfect life will come true..
I really wish that what i dreamed is not true at all!!!
If it's really came true it is just a way of killing me...
Because it will ruin us...

You said that i think too much thats why will dream rubbish things..
But i felt it is so true in the dream..
My heart is so pain when im awake from the dreams...
Can felt my tears dried on my face after that..
Im really afraid this is a signal..
Tell me its not true at all...

Why so many things happen recently?
Why we just cant get what we supposed to get and always have to suffer??
God.. can you help us??
Im just too tired seeing somebody face getting moody everyday and having so many problems that couldn't solve and being so helpless...
I feel so useless because couldn't help anything...
This make me feel our gap is getting further and further...
I really appreciate this relationship very very much...

Soon, i will back to study again...
Wondering what will happen next...
You told me you going back working there...
I really don't know how to react that moment..
Feel so so so lost....
What you want me to answer you??
Was hoping everything will be fine and your situation will be better after leaving here..
At the same time im afraid that your leaving will cause our gap getting further and further..
Tell me it will be fine baby...
Seeing you so suffer i really do not know what to do....
Cant help anything at all make me so suffocating...

Will be study one year at here then going Kampar continue study for 3 years...
What will happen next???
Can anyone predict what will happen next??
Father..please help me...
I really do not know how to express my feelings now..
My emotion is totally IMBA now...

Baby,
I miss you so much..
Always wanted to understand you more but at the end things went worse..
How you want me to tell you all this..
Im afraid of too much things..
Im so tired too...
Im so worry about you and also about us...

Im just so into you...
There is no reason why...
Im just wanna love you with my hearts...
Love you so much baby...

Randomly feeling IMBA!!

Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!! Work!!!

IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!! IMBA!!!

Cut my hair just now...

PUAS!!!


To be continue...





MICHELLE!!!